In one of my old schools I met a very troubled girl named Elanit, who constantly bullied me and wouldn't leave me alone. It wasn't always that way. We were good friends for about a month. During that time, I realized that she wasn't the nicest, was dishonest, manipulative, and wasn't too good of a friend after all. I almost hated her for the longest time, but at the same time I felt bad for her. She was from a Chabad family, and they weren't taking it easy how she suddenly decided she didn't want to be Jewish anymore. I never really understood why she wanted to throw away Yiddishkeit. I could understand how she wanted to be free and independent. But for me, Yiddishkeit is what sets me free. I can't relate to her in that respect, but I would like to think that we are kind of similar in that we have rebelled from what we were born into. I rebelled from a secular life, she rebelled from a frum, kosher life.
As I was thinking about her today, I remembered a tidbit from Pirkei Avos; "Who is rich? He who is satisfied with his lot, as it is said: 'When you eat the toil of your hands you are fortunate and it is good for you,'". There is so much truth to this. She struggles with the life that she has and is therefore very poor in happiness. I struggled, but I left behind what I struggled with. And today, I can say that I am exceedingly wealthy studying the Torah and living frum. As for her, I hope that wherever she goes, she at least can find happiness.
Let us all find happiness from it's most pure source, the Torah. Amen!